All I wanted was a taste of truth, a feel for some soulful energy. I left the common grounds I was comfortable with, to explore for the sake of my own being. I yearned to discover a story of my own. I rode my bike along the unpaved rock road, my destination was only the thought of where ever I felt like going and that was good enough. I just wanted to move, to be alone and feel the presence of no other, but my own. I cut a few corners leading to a more unpopulated scenery, into smaller much narrow dirt path, up strenuous hills and down vine covered walls. I felt alive with the wind against my skin, chasing its last touch. I felt like I could breathe again. How the thoughts carried me to calm senses and my childhood memory of carefree emotion. The need to be completely free again flourished within and how the feeling never left. My ears tingled, I could hear clear singing of the waves waking from the suns shine and falling to the sands touch. The breeze faded and I stopped. A tiny walkway with large rocks almost dangerous to walk upon, dared me to try and led me to secrecy of a lifetime. My heart immediately felt a strong pressure as if an unexpected hug from a long lost loved one found me. The path guarded with avocado green cactus and naked trees with spiral branches connected to its end presented a treasure chest of sea shells and a black stone platform that embraced the sea. I could not believe the beauty bestowed upon me and the vibrance of life which overflowed my energy. I was ecstatic, like a child receiving a gift that impacted a youthful mind forever. It was me and what I was gifted with, the moment to just be again, careless and with no guardian- just free. I dropped everything in my possession and fled to this dream. I stood in the center of this platform and I looked over an oval shape hole filled with water, bonded to a small cave like mouth that drank its warm soothing tea. I dipped my foot into this pool and a thunder roar from the ocean sent a silky wave. Blinded for a moment as the mouths cave swallowed a hundred gallons worth; this oval shaped hole, in this platform I stood on, exploded a burst of beauty like fireworks in the sky and showered every inch of my body with it's liquid love. Drenched in bliss with the waters touch. At that defined minute this smile, a smile I truly remember as a child crafted my face and I was more alive than I have ever been in my young days. Just those moments of play alone, the ecstacy of joy, the suprising tickle from mother earth, how it filled me with an indescribable amount of pure happiness; with words I can never really verbalize. That was it. It was mine, no one elses and it was perfectly fine to be selfish for once. I could feel the excitement of laughter celebrate inside my soul. How this bliss made my world spin round and round, forever going and I could taste the essence of life.
Nosara, Costa Rica
April 22, 2010
