It has taken me days to explain the heartbreak and heaviness I feel, the pain and loss we all feel.
I don't understand a lot in this life still. I don't understand how ones life can be so tragic in ending yet humble and kind in living.
I have cried many and many of minutes and moments these days, aching and yearning for a better understanding, for the loss of his life. So sudden, too soon. We all ache for peace.
A few minutes before I heard the news, I was looking out the car window admiring the tall pine trees, the bright beautiful blue sky and how the snow that covered the mountains as far as the eye can see. I felt that feeling, you know, the one that life gives you on occasion, joy and gratitude.
When I received that call from my sister, the joy melted as quickly as the snow from the warmth of the sun. I had so many questions yet could not put any thought into words. The tears, they flowed without end.
I wish I spent more time together, I wish I could share the view of the tall pines and soft snow with you. Have you ever even felt the snow? Have you ever seen a snow filled wonderland?
I ache, we all ache.
We now, all live for you.
My love to you always Elvin.
Your Cousin ,
Leah
February 7, 2021 11:43am
